It’s not good to go to sleep angry. God said this, because He knows the affect that this will have on us. I have to learn to let things go, or so I keep telling myself. I take it personally when systems incorporate themselves into my nucleus, uninvited and unwanted. It is difficult to do when I live in a world stanched in laws meant to dehumanize me. Yes, I take it personally, when little girls and boys are shot down. There are so many things to get upset about, so many things that it can be overwhelming. And I know if I stay in this place, I will become ineffective in my ministry. It is impossible to help others in a heightened state. I am well aware that Satan will use thoughts to disrupt my peace, stunt my joy and create conflict. I know this, so why do I still get so worked up?
I know why, it’s because, I am an advocate, God created me this way, but I have yet to perfect this energy that He has blessed me with. I must pick and choose my battles. I have to control what I will and will not dwell on. I must know when to stick and move, or just move out of the way. Today, I stand in the peace that God has granted to me, a peace that surpasses all understanding. I know this does not change the circumstance or situation, but I know that I am in control how I choose to react to it.
I won’t give this mess another minute of my time or energy.
Peace… literally.